February 2012
14 posts
whoops now I’m laying in bed having a smoke and singing along to adele
what am I doing
I was just about to fall asleep and then ke$ha happened whoops
I just noticed that I have 74 drafts when did this happen what’s even in there
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wow okay so I’m starting to develop a serious anger problem and it’s because of school and yes I know that everyone gets ~unhappy and mad~ at school but this is Serious Business because I’m pretty sure I might give someone a black eye
and considering I go to the biggest high school in my city(perhaps western canada too? I dunno) in terms of POPULATION it really does not help at...
whoops today we watched a documentary on skinheads/nazis in sociology and I actually started sweating and shaking with anger and had to leave and proceeded to go vandalize the bathroom whoops
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in other news I’ve misplaced my headphones and seriously can’t find them so tomorrow’s bus ride to school should be a joyous time
well my horoscope for tomorrow is rather depressing but it will end up being most likely 100% accurate
a stupid rant about stupid things
this sounds so dumb and pathetic and whiny but I miss feeling all young and party-like and jesus christ I mean I’m 16 I AM young but I went through my ~~party~~ days when I was 14/15 and did drugs and drank and did stupid things and even smoking was ~new~ and ~exciting~ and now I’m so goddamn boring and I have a smoke and I’m kinda just like oh god why am I doing this what am I...
got my disposable camera developed so I’ll be scanning photos and putting them on flickr and then tumblr so you’ll get a break from text posts yaey
I don’t think I posted last cameras good ones either so I’ll do that too
January 2012
21 posts
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wait I go back to school on tuesday and it’s been like 5 weeks of winter/exam break and I think I forgot how to learn and wait I’m crying and unhappy help I don’t want to go back to school yet I just want to fix this mess before I have to deal with actual human beings can’t I just stay in bed forever?? I just want to be happy again is that too much to ask or
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and I’m also feeling rather anxious today and it sucks bigtime, my heart is all fluttery for no reason at all and this happens sometimes and I DON’T LIKE IT
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losing a lot of the followers that I was really stoked to have follow me, poo. I haven’t had a new follower in so goddamn long, I’m losing them daily. does everybody hate me, or? at least I still have a few good ol’ followers
sorry that I really only post text posts? at least I’m not posting the same shit that everyone on tumblr also posts?
meh
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rekindled my love for fun. because I haven’t listened to them in a good year
tears in my eyes oh god crying
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I think I saw you in my sleep, darling, I think I saw you in my dreams, you were stitching up the seams on every broken promise that your body couldn’t keep. I thought I heard the door open, oh no, I thought I heard the door open, but I only heard it close. I thought I heard a plane crashing, but now I think it was your passion snapping. I think you saw me confronting my fear, it went up...
listening to la dispute har har
feeling miserable
fuck
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really large obnoxious themes kind of make me want to vomit whoops
I think I need to construct myself some sort of hidden cookie/candy stash in my room
yes
done school for another 2 weeks for exam break.. 2 weeks of winter break, went back for 3 days.. 2 week exam break; hells yes
and I start my second semester when I get back and I am stoked because I have creative writing and grade 12 sociology
oh and I did my math final today and I am officially done math FOREVER
blah
my insomnia is slowly creeping back into my life whoops
shitters
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why is my room so fucking cold?
I mean today I tacked a sheet on my ceiling (makes it so fort-like and cozy) and it covers my heating vent but the sheet is thin so I can’t see it keeping all of the heat away :( goddammit
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spent 7 hours in the hospital last night, 4 of those spent waiting and dealing with douchey male nurses, fuck
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Anonymous asked: any tattoos/piercings?
sometimes I actually wish I liked smoking weed because pm all of my friends smoke weed and I just don’t like it I mean it really fucks with my anxiety, I shake and lose control of everything and I shake and shake and shake and I get incredibly suicidal
it’s awesome
but no seriously it sucks big time
(but actually most of the time I don’t care because whenever I’m with...
December 2011
7 posts
(late) obligatory christmas post! I got 3 records from my brother; discharge, crass and harum scarum. Karma soap and bubble bar from lush, a big panda bear pillow, a really cute patchwork cat pillow from 10 thousand villages along with a cute kitty box, nag champa incense, a cute incense holder and a cone incense holder and a 50 dollar visa giftcard (I think that is all) and from my boyfriend I...
CRUSTMAS
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has anyone been on prozac or zoloft for depression...
I’m currently on cipralex for both of those problems and it’s basically stopped working for me and my doctor was thinking of switching me to prozac or zoloft and I’d just like to know your experiences with either medication?
also my follower count is dropping daily, lovely
whatever though my blog sucks lately, but it does have its peaks sometimes I guess when I get my disposables developed??? meh
November 2011
19 posts
I'm running on caffeine and nicotine and...
I just really miss summer, and not the weather, but I was happy and actually tolerated people
now I’m just sassy
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help I think I might kill someone*
*everyone
etacazilee:
it’s one of those nights where i won’t sleep because i don’t want to deal with tomorrow.
yep
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nobody has any fucking respect lately, get off your high fucking horse and stop being so pretentious and ignorant.
I’ve been waking up on the wrong side of the bed everyday since ‘95
castorr replied to your post: I need a hobby, what are good hobbies guys except…
learn to play an instrument.
I’m actually trying to learn the guitar! but I feel like I have weird fingers and can’t do it?? but I am trying!
barbieandken replied to your post: I need a hobby, what are good hobbies guys except…
sports.
lol
I can’t play sports to save my life
team sports don’t work for me and I don’t like physical activity(lol fuck yeah laziness) also I’m asthmatic and a smoker
fuck I’m unhealthy